Today, I’m wishing I could rewind time,
’cause I find the more I reflect, the more I’m affected
by the things I couldn’t say,
now today- I’m screaming ‘to the silence
wondering if I said something then,
would you be here- with me- now?
Somehow- I have to believe that I’ll see you again,
so I can let you know,
that to me you were more than a friend.
If I ever believed that I could ever love,
and ever thought that I was in love;
you were the one- that made me realize –
it was there, right before my eyes,
…but my mouth failed me…
I’m screaming ‘to the silence,
wishing I could rewind time.
There was a bridge that brought us together
and there we stood and mingled in the middle
with the others, who knew you and I
but we did not know each other.
Not more than what one could interpret
from short shot glances.
I knew then I cared not to know you further
and tread light as a feather
as I enjoyed the company of the others and us together.
Then came a time when you felt my minglings
were not good enough for your standard
and how hard for me to digest this,
you, a king of losers, trying to diss.
The war is being fought, always being fought!
We win small battles, like today, giving birth
to hope that there may be an end.
And though we’ve fought hard to be in this moment
it passed before we had a chance to know it
For the enemy was more than upon us- again –
Hidden not just behind our lines,
he was in us – deep seated in our mind
whispering fear into us.
waiting for the day we drag our heels and sigh
and think “it wont ever stop”
To which he will reply, “You’re right so join me”
Causing in us, hesitation – the battle, we wont fight.
For how can I fire the gun when I’m the enemy?