Honesty, I closed my eyes to see better,
I learned how to hear the hidden parts of people’s hearts,
I became a person to read people to the letter,
Doing my best to help others lost in the dark.
Sadly those in darkness can be infectious
I just wanted to help, to love someone once,
I get the worst of it and yet get called vicious.
I’m the one still playing like a dunce.
‘ don’t know how much it pains me and others
To see you react and place yourself higher,
In relationships you never truly built with another
It’s like you’ve become a self deceived liar.
I tried my best to hold all this within
You can’t even begin to know how much it matters
Another argument with you, I don’t care to win.
I just want to focus on what truly matters.
It’s about me being me and being real and helping people feel
I’m not sorry that it’s mostly you who causes grief
I just want to get away so I can finally heal,
Is it asking you too much for a tad bit of relief?
After all it was you who did all this to me.
September 1 5th