It’s been awhile since I wrote a year end post,
So here’s a year end poem; a glace back at my life,
Hoping to inspire those who are in hard times;
Know that the tide changes, as night turns to day.
2010 – I fell apart and left Edmonton,
I left a lot behind, including my son.
I had to escape all the drugs and the numbness
Of living in a city that doesn’t sleep.
2011 – I moved to B.C for a fresh start,
Things were slow, and frustrating.
In February I got a job at Wendy’s that drove me nuts.
Justin died three months later…
This is where everything changed again.
I, unwillingly reverted back to a very angry person,
Driven by a pain unlike any Id ever felt before
I was depressed and swore I hated life.
2012 – my girlfriend and I constantly fighting.
She slapped, so I slapped her back.
By the time spring came I was charged.
By mid September I was in jail.
2013 – is still the same ; my roomate Darian hangs himself,
another life lost and I’m still at working at Wendys,
Doing the same things I shouldn’t be doing
In May I lost my job – June – I’m charged again.
When does this shit end?
I’m just trying to live my life and be a good person.
But with so much pain inside: Bad Company kept –
Myself esteem fell to shit.
2014 starts with no end in sight to my plights,
No resolutions were made; same old shit.
Then all of a sudden I got a call for a job.
It’s been ten months since I had a job.
I’m hired on the spot, I get complimented on my work.
I’m challenged again, life is good –
Two months later the results of my charges are minimal.
The Judge for once saw I’m just a person, not a criminal.
I’m finishing up this year in fine standing.
I got some work to work on and I’m working on it.
Not ashamed to admit I’m in counselling,
If you knew me and my past – I’ve been through a lot of shit.
SO here’s to 2015 – the best year yet.
I’ve been dragged through the dirt,
I’ve lost a lot but I am never gonna quit.
I’ll always rise to meet the challenge
Cause when “I get knocked down,
I get up again.”
December 31st 2014