Cheap Ramen

look at my small.

emaciated muscles;

hard working muscles;

fed on cheap ramen

beer;

and hard work;

lifting pails of stucco every day.

sometimes the boss doesn’t pay

but what can I say;

I get by and cant complain

while others cry;

And try so hard to be something more

than they were meant to be’

ill be me ill be me;

I am free…..

Look at my pathetic molded mind

I’m lost, lost in time; and my mind

is the only thing between me and

the future of my find; of myself’

of you and you and you….

… we cant force another line or the rhyme

wont line up; I may then be abrupt

and break from the the scheme

of schisms

liberalism

sometimes people expect

perfectionism

in prisms

 

I’m so hungry….

… and lonely….

but not literally….

no …. not at all….

not at all…

My friend.

 

A Someone

once upon a time there was a peon who believed;

he believed in good and had a vision of the future;

bad things would happen;

people would die

and ones sanity would be bent.

For the price of doing what is right

to your fellow man

even when they choose to do

wrong by you…

 

This peon became a someone, a someone

who became a hero, a hero that became

Number one

This peon became a someone, a someone

who became a hero, a hero that became

Number one

 

You get to watch me go insane

I’m not sorry for every pit of pain

i painted and put you in;

I returned sin for sin and now I’m

a had been

so please turn around and mimic me.

for

 

once upon a time there was a peon who believed;

he believed in good and had a vision of the future;

bad things would happen;

people would die

and ones sanity would be bent.

For the price of doing what is right

to your fellow man

even when they choose to do

wrong by you…

 

Butterfly

Go ahead, drink my spit.
Come to me and complain.
Come to me and sing about all the pain;
Come here and love me.
Cockroaches like the dark
They climb all over each other
blind; eating everything,
crawling; eating each other;
Trash with trash….
They cover each other in shite.
Shit becomes the light.
But YOU! – YOU! are beautiful and wonderful;
Delightful; deep and insightful!
So mend your heart, beautiful butterfly.
It’s time for bright skies.
Flutter like the effortless being you’ve become.

Abstract Painting

A work of art, caught in a flash;

beautiful today but it wont last…

For all the light you brought;

darkness is coming and everything we had

is quickly burning;

 

I wish you didn’t play that song

the first time we met; the first time we kissed;

the first time we fucked;

the first time we fought;

I wish you didn’t play those songs.

Now I can’t listen to those songs.

 

burning in my chest; burning in my lungs;

waking from the nightmares of your disfigured face;

I still sometimes… like to look at pictures of you

and us; and the nasty porn we made together…

 

I am sick; I am sick, I am sick;

I feed myself on the past;

I prayed for your death;

then simply prayed these memories wouldn’t last

I am sick; I am sick, I am sick;

I feed myself on the past;

I prayed for your death;

I hold my breath… to see you fail…

 

I am sick; I am sick, I am sick;

I feed myself on the past;

You were just a work of art,

caught in a flash;

beautiful for a moment but it wont last…

I am sick; I am sick, I am sick;

I feed myself on the past;

 

I… prayed for your death;

I hold my breath…

too see you fail…

 

 

When I met you

In the face of a stranger; three is a moment

when you choose who you want to be;

become anything or anyone;

take it serious or just have fun

it’s only the first impression’

that lasts the longest….

 

I’m a wreck, I’m a player I’m a drunk.

I’m a Christian, I’m a devil, I believe in God’

and evil too and how we act to each other

may put us against one another;

 

but I’m no stranger anymore;

I’m no stranger anymore…

I’ll be real or fake, here a now

a saint or a whore…

 

I’m your smiling new found – pretend friend

I’m anything you need me to be.

So one day you’ll be anything I need you to be;

just for me; just for me just more me;

is what went through my head when I first saw you

silly me, silly me, silly me,

 

In the face of a stranger; three is a moment

when you choose who you want to be;

become anything or anyone;

take it serious or just have fun

it’s only the first impression’

that lasts the longest….

 

and its the last memory that hurts the most.

which is what you’d love to hear;

so without fear I put on my smile and walk into some

other stranger;

trying not to be the person I was

when I met you.

 

 

 

 

Tomorrow Is coming

Today I placed my convictions

Tomorrow is coming quickly

I’m haunted by yesterday

Today I placed my convictions…

Tomorrow is coming quickly…

I’m haunted by yesterday ….

Today I changed, I tucked all my hate

into a nice little ball that will explode tomorrow;

as my high wears down; I’m haunted by yesterday

The man that I was, the man that I could be

the man that I became!

The man that I was, the man that I could be

the man that I became!

WAS ALL A PART OF WHO YOU WERE TO ME!

Today I placed my convictions

Tomorrow is coming quickly

I’m haunted by yesterday

Today I placed my convictions…

Tomorrow is coming quickly…

So don’t hate the monster you love to blame

So don’t hate the monster that I became!

So don’t hate the monster you love to blame

So don’t hate the monster that I became!

I’m here to take revenge and haunt you today’

with the horrid reminders of who you use to be’

I’m hear to smear your tomorrow; and you like me;

leave you in sorrow; Make you into a monster;

so you can understand your own damn question;

when you ask

what is wrong with me.